Today is the first anniversary of my darling bike. Getting on top of it, I forget everything apart form the presence of traffic policemen on the hi speed roads. 1 lucky girl (not family) did get the chance to sit on it for a fleeting moment. Before you get excited, there is nothing cooking guys. I thought there would be lightening, thunder but it did not happen. Again none of the archived writings are included in this. I returned from Mumbai without getting ill and that was my target. Reaching back home I was not in a position to go out but that is cool, as long as I achieved my target. Saurabh got a whooping job first up at Adobe and it has been 6 companies and I have not even been able to sit for any. Didn’t arrive in time, missed percentage criteria, didn’t register in time. 3 reasons, 6 misses. I was one of the first in class to have a resume ready but with this new format, I was the last one. Though I know that inspite of high packages, I won’t enjoy these tech jobs and also am in no way ready to face the companies, this is a minor reason though. Saurabh was successful inspite of not even preparing for it while he was screwing up things at Microsoft because he is genuinely interested in coding and not just after it for money. Deloitte might offer me a PPO but contrary to perception it’s a coding job which I don’t enjoy. Choosing a safe branch here was for job guarantee and now when I have it, i don't want it. So right now I have decided not to touch Let us C but focus on preparing for the job I want to do and MBA prep, where verbal section is taking me down every time. There are less companies, less jobs and the whole college for these but I want to back myself for this. I might get doomed but atleast will be satisfied that I followed by heart this time and won’t blame anyone else. Also going against the crowd, complicating things, living off the edge has its own charm which you normal people can’t understand. Apart form Ma, no one has understood my point leaving aside those who went through a similar stage.
I have been losing friends on a sharp scale. Sometimes it’s the circumstances but usually its my own antics and lack of regard of their importance and to a bit, ego problem. But deep down I know the constraints which are making me act strange. I myself don’t know what I talk so can’t expect you to understand this yet another cryptic code.
All I can say is that if you want someone to stay attached with you forever, never ever force them to change themselves no matter how pathetic they are. If they think there is a need for it, they will adapt themselves to it but when forced too, they will leave, no matter how good you are and no matter how much they are attached to you. All I can do is say such quotations, yet another valid accusation. Wow, have faced a lot of slack in the past few days. I don't think people deserve an answer. I don’t know how I want to be although I think spreading smiles and laughter is as important as getting good marks. For this, I use a number of tools but sometimes make fun of people but I start with laughing at myself and that is just for the moment, no hard feelings. I also have exceeded my limit a number of times in quest of testing the patience of the other person. But then, are the people around good enough for me to waste my energy and act like a joker to make them happy? Ponder while I figure out where I reach out in my life. With the emotions running high am sure I have gone overboard in this post. Anyways till the next post,
Stay Hungry Stay Foolish.
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