2011 started off on a disastrous note with friends getting cheated off money, losing family members, life threatening accidents. XAT was on 2 january and it was a very tough exam with varied number of questions and marks too. But at 99.8 percentile that is my only hope left now along with IIFT which I will not join. On 3rd january itself Pavit had told me my CAT result as a result of the leak; 98.75 %ile which expectedly didn't fetch me a single call. As expected english brought me down, 1 question more correct in that and i would have cleared any english sectional cutoff and got above 99 %ile bar but that won't have helped either. IIM-A drastically changed its criteria this year and as a result of it even those having scores greater than 99.8 couldn't make through.
Wasn't shortlisted for FMS too which would have seen the cutoff jump by a 100 marks. I had come out of the examination centre fearing that i might just be one of the toppers (based on last year cutoffs) but what a twist it was. I wish I had a couple of more days to prepare for it as I could barely finish with the past year RC questions ( I still didn't want them to come as I wasn't satisfied with their answer keys) but this time the Verbal questions got repeated.
My approach should have been fearless and not conservative. I need to get back to using unconventional yet time saving methods of solving which I employed during JEE days. Some 'friends' expressed caustic surprise over how I could not get through, some wrote letters aimed at cheering me up though the intention behind it was sinister. But I am unaffected. I wish I had enough emotions left in me to give a shot at crying but nothing came through. I have lost faith in CAT with the type of normalizations techniques involved, in IIM's which had strange selection criterias. Defeat doesn't scare me now.
I just have a constant foolish grin on my face which arises form the situation in which life has put me in. Thinking of going back to coding books for a better paying job.
My efforts till 2:30 AM on the day of Microprocessors exam bore fruit.
http://www.crisil.com/crisil-young-thought-leader-2010/index.html
As the years progressed, I have become more obstinate with my particular exam preparation schedule being
1 Masti till 10 PM of the previous day.
2 10-4 Study + maggi
3 4-6 Sleep which gets extended to 7-8 with multiple alarms which are of no use as finally mom has to intervene.
4 After 8, extreme anxiety leading to the urge of vomiting.
5 The promise to myself on the way to college that I will be regular for the next one.
6 Trying to understand the most important stuff which I have left from Saurabh
7 During exam: Trying to save my skin from darkening due to Sunlight
8 After exam: Abusing anyone who dares to discuss the paper
9 After reaching home, back to point 1.
2 comments:
Hi there! Happened to come across your blog....Your style of expressing your thoughts is quite amazing and hilarious(at times!)....Completely agree with your preparation schedule as this is what most of the students(like me) actually do.
Going through your posts, it seems like you have this habit of underestimating yourself and treating others far superior than you but its really absurd coming from a person who is so good at quizzing (read your post 'sahil ban gaya tv star') and equally good at writing( your blog and the crisil award reveals that-btw, congratulations for the same:)).
Any ways, although I don't find myself capable enough to advice a fourth year but still felt the need to do so...I think you ought to boost your morale up rather than embracing 'mediocrity' and 'defeat'.
P.S.: well all this isn't on the basis of this post only..had read a few and so consequently, deciphered this.
well, the self generated burden of expectations + absence of hardwork + extreme naivety doz create a jerk out of a man..
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